WARNING: Soppy blubbering by me.
THIS is what happens when you force yourself to work outside your ZONE OF GENIUS. Don’t do it. Find your ease and do THAT.
The other day I posted that I felt your pain. Well today I’m showing you mine.
There’s actually nothing I love more than improvising. That is why I’m a comedian and Facebook Live coach.
I have a 5 minute talk to deliver this coming Saturday night. But delivering a prepared speech is completely out of my zone of genius. There will be many people from places like Toastmasters there on Saturday. I know they have a certain expectation of how the speech should be structured and how I should deliver it. In fact I was replaced as MC by a Toastmasters champion. But I’m not going to deliver something like that – I went to clown school not Toastmasters training.
Trying to learn my speech word for word has just been agonising. Last time I did it, learnt a talk work for word, I didn’t deliver it the way that I wanted to, full of life or with any ME in it, because I was so scared I was going to forget the words. I hated presenting it and felt completely disconnected with the audience and for me, to whom deep connection is life-blood, it was a horror show.
So I’m going into the talk on Saturday completely improvising. It’s is a huge risk that I’m going to take, and in this video I share my process. I might be a coach but don’t think I’ve got it all sorted out.
I teach that which I need to learn most.
This was NOT a LIVE post. I actually recorded it for myself so I could see and hear what I was feeling for my own work. But then I decided to share it.
If you don’t like tears then don’t watch. If you don’t like pain, don’t watch. And I’m sorry but I do actually BURP part way through this so if you don’t like that then you better not watch either.
I feel your pain.